This hits home quite a lot today. I am pregnant from a blighted ovum (embryo has not developed, but the amniotic sac it is supposed to be in did develop), for the second time. Today that was confirmed with an ultrasound (they already did one last week).
Last time I waited for the miscarriage to happen naturally (on the advise of a doctor) and that took months and then I gave up and got an abortion (pills and surgery). I can tell you being and feeling pregnant while knowing you will not have a baby is a horrible feeling. So, this time I told the new doctor that I did not want to do it again and that was fine. Within 15 minutes after the appointment I had the abortion pills in my bag and was on my way home and able to use them when I want.
It is a shitty situation I am in and taking these pills is not fun. I got quite ill last time. But the fact that I can get them so easily in this situation does make it better. I can take them and in a couple of days I will feel better and can process things. I do not need to wait for months carrying an non-vital pregnancy.
I feel so bad for the women who are in the same, and often much worse situations as me and that do not have access to abortion anymore. I really hope this will change and also the attitude towards abortion will change. I do not judge women who get it for non-medical reasons. They should be able to also. But besides that, it is a normal medical procedure that is sometimes life-saving and often just helps to make a horrible situation more bearable. I feel like people sometimes forget that part.
Thank you. I think this is a reason for abortion that happens quite often. I really hope that it helps if I share it.
I think I will be okay. I am very sad as I really wanted a baby and I am not sure whether I can have them as I have fertility issues. However, last time the sadness got less over time, fortunately. It is still a bad memory, but it is not constantly in my mind anymore. I think this time the same will happen.