Things sound really hard now, you’ve been triggered and a lot of bad thoughts are swirling round your head. Feeling like a waste of resources is a horrible feeling, we end up thinking of everything bad about us. It’s understandable that you feel angry at society, it’s really effecting you and you’re in pain.

I’m really glad you’ve posted. If you’re having suicidal thoughts, it’s really important to reach out to a hotline… you need and deserve their support right now. Have you tried posting on !mentalhealth@lemmy.world it’s a good place to get support